Here i am wishing "HAPPY MOTHERS DAY", to all mummies and readers(if any). It has been a uneventful day for me as i was at home the whole day and Liris was crying none stop, wanting his favorite breast to sit inside his mouth forever.Rislin was better behaved though.

Sigh, being a mum really teaches me alot of things. What i learnt was to push myself a zillion times beyond exhaustion level, even if i am. To grow another few more eyes out, as i need to attend to both Rislin and Liris. I do admit i do get guilty and the guilt level hangs on me for very long when Liris gets sooooooo cranky that leaving me almost no time for Rislin. So she is pretty much playing with herself at home and is "wasting her time away".

I thought of putting her at the playgroup but i really feel that its a waste of money $100+ per month, although i dont deny that it would be better to get her socialised. But me as a SAHM. I need to be mindful of my pocket and what i spend. Sometimes i dont mind spending example like 100+ for a kitchen set for her. But that is because she can play for years as we know kids like to pretend play.

But a playgroup primarily is play and its 100+ per month. Im not sure of how im going to walk down this motherhood as i feel more and more stressful in terms of family and taking care of them alone. I dont mind and have taken in my stride of taking care of them alone. But i really detest it when my parents act like they care for my kids but in actual fact, they are only there to "play".