Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Finally, I gave birth to baby liri today. I can't get to sleep so here I am typing my labour story haha. As previously I said, I have complicated problems. So we went to dr Ang today to ask him if it's safer to induce or wait as husband would like a dragon baby.
But to our suprise while checking unknowingly he swept my membranes. Hah. Because dr Ang told me before if I want to be induced to come in today. So he thought that I had made up my decision.
I'm 36weeks 6days so I'm quite worried to be frank. But thank god I went with the choice of dr Ang inducing. It is in god's plan.(I'm a free thinker who believe there's a god in the world just not specific which god). I almost lost baby liri in labour.
I was in dr Ang care all along since inducing till I gave birth. (he gave me a lift in his car to hospital) .Actually when he checked me at 4cm dilated he thought I will take sometime and he went home. So I almost gave birth without him around and the nurse were stopping me from giving birth which was terrible.my legs were forced closed. I was told to stop pushing etc.
I was in pain in early labour 4cm dilated ,I was induced at 3cm though and baby was 3.1kg at ultrasound, anyway because I was in pain so I tend to "rub" the bed sheet with my feet so it dropped off. And the pain I couldn't really take it and had to move side to side as it was back labour. So the sheets were messed up and the bedsheet at the leg drop.
Then the nurse came in, saw it, scolded me for it. Even husband also said that she was rude. When I was giving birth, I had to scream as I needed to push my baby but they were stopping it. One of the nurse was slapping my face, but as I was too exhausted, I couldn't react. The rude nurse whom scolded me for the bedsheet, also say something like "when baby crowning how? If you now like this already" when I was in a awkward position due to coping on my contraction pain. I shocked her by saying baby is already crowning which is true, and she panicked!
Later on, husband told me that nurse that slapped me gently or so but I don't feel so, but she really massage my hand, which relieve me some of my pain. Which I'm thankfully at first wanted to go home but as I went into labour so she helped out.
I won't deny I'm pissed but she is nice in some parts so I definitely won't feedback her. Anyway the feedback is useless. Suddenly in labour, I heard them saying baby has little to no heartbeat. The heartbeat was dropping fast and even remain at 90+ even after i breath the oxygen mask as baby was not getting enough oxygen.
Exhausted me which collapsed on the bed thought I'm going to end up with another loss. But they gave me oxygen mask to breath and finally after 20-30mins, dr Ang finally arrived and they finally let me push. I was so in pain during the time they put their hand inside me to stop me from pushing the baby out, that I started biting myself and land up in bruises and they also stopped me from doing it. As it was a terrible feeling that your body is pushing out baby but they forcing the body to stop! They also closed my legs to prevent baby coming out. My sad bruises
And i almost bite hubby hand too, but too heart pain never and bite his jeans haha.
Baby face was facing downwards thus in a more painful and hard labour. Dr Ang even said that usually this kind of birth is via csection. No gynae will risk it. Thank god baby is out ALIVE. And healthy, he doesn't need nicu.
I'm so proud of making it without a single drug except for the behind part, oxygen mask. And baby heartbeat stopped I suspected that is because they delay my labour too long.
This baby is really lucky.. Very lucky.. God's plan that I almost lost him twice. Once was I almost aborted him.. Really almost as I was in the operating suite. Another is thru the labour. When I was almost going to have him about 8-9cm dilated, he has little and no heartbeat at some point of time.
My boy who beat the death twice. Really is a hero. My mini hero..